I love it when I hear from God unexpectedly.
This morning was rough. A lot of things have just been piling up and I finally had a (long overdue) break down. I’m completely spent and overwhelmed. Jeremy and I went on a buggy ride to check the property lines and the dam finally busted and everything came spilling out.
Then during a mini Facebook break while sitting at my desk, I was scrolling through today’s memories. and I came up on this that I had posted three years ago…
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about grace. About peace. About effort and priorities. Everywhere around me, messages of God’s Grace and the peace of Christ keep manifesting. In my Bible studies, on social media, in conversation with friends. I’m at a point in my life where I’m feeling overwhelmed. Like I’m failing. Like I’m not enough. And you know what? I’m not. I’m not enough – not on my own. But God didn’t create me to be perfect. He created me to need Him. He already knows what I need help with. He set me on the path I’m on. He is just waiting on me to let Him. All He asks is that I love Him, put Him first, and do my best. He doesn’t expect me to do it all. But He does want me to give my all to what I do. What He wants me to do is give my effort to and focus on the tasks He has placed before me. I need to give myself the same grace that I give others, and that God gives me, and realize it’s okay not to do everything. God wants me to focus on what’s important, not what’s trivial. When I let go of these things that aren’t (shouldn’t be) at the top of my priority list, and I focus on God and the things that are important to Him, that’s where I will find peace.
It’s all connected.
When I prioritize,
and focus my effort on the important things,
and give myself grace and accept God’s grace with everything else,
then the peace will come.
I have these feelings of not being enough, of not doing enough, of not getting anything accomplished. But today I was reminded (by Jeremy and God both) that all I can do is all I can do, and that is enough. And I’m enough. I’m doing my best to be who God wants me to be, and raise my children to be who God wants them to be. And I’m blessed with a wonderful supportive husband to help me remember that. And a loving mighty God who will help me through it all and cover me with His grace when I fall.